Timeline

So, it's been about 3 days since i had to finally grow up. 3 days ago i probably would be one of the most childish people you'd ever meet, considering i spew random lame jokes, prank people and laugh about absolutely everything and nothing at all. My life had been one huge living joke until exactly 7:15pm on Tuesday the 15th of july. Let me put out to all of you that i'm 27 years old and my husband left me with a noisy infant for another woman with big tits.

Big tits... what a stereotypical thing to do. Men. They think with they're balls, well, most of them do. I guess another thing is the fact that everyone gets old. The noisy infant that governs my life is my wonderful baby, Alicia. She's irritating, loud, smells half the time and is absolutely beautiful even if her father was an ass to the highest degree. Most of the time you can see me in the park cooing at her and being reminded that i should go out and join the game yet again. Even if i don't feel like it, every child needs a father.

Andreas is a twat, I married him because he asked nicely and i was pressured to do so. Families can be such a pain. I love his mom, dad and siblings but he's a little on the crooked side. I guess thats the initial attraction... I needed to fix him.

Well, i dont feel the need to fix something thats broken though so its a live and let live thing. Hearing my daughter cry snapped me back to reality. I need to find a nanny for my baby, I have to start work again. It's really horrible flipping through the newspaper trying to find a decent job. Standard requirements put me in place with every other person who needs finanial support. Right now, I feel as though the world had reared its ugly head once again and had eaten me up and spat me out like old gum.

Speaking of old gum, how long had i been chewing this piece? It's been hours since breakfast. I think it must be time for lunch, or even tea and i haven't heard from anyone at all. I picked up a red marker on the table and circled several posts. I hope my former boss would take me back. I was a partner of the firm.
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Andreas called up just now. He wants to see Alicia. All i could do was shrug my shoulders, he still is her father and we haven't signed the papers. I give up. I'm going to his parents tomorrow to talk about the divorce plans, they'll be devastated but at least i won't have to suffer and go into denial.
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Today, i walk into my in-law's house and tell them about my plans of singlemomdom. I hear them sigh as they shake their head. They never thought he, the loving and caring son, would do such a thing. I never thought so too until it happened. I shrugged my shoulders as the news ravaged mama. Her wrinkles more profound. My brother in-law, Antonio, just looked blankly at the wall as if to say 'i told you so' but the words just never came out of his mouth. Tears finally started to rain down my cheek and no matter how hard i try to stop it, it kept on going. I took a tissue and wiped each tear off reminding myself that it wasn't worth it.

Mama asked me if i wanted to stay in the their house until everything was finalised. I nodded, it would be good to get out of the place my heart got burnt. Antonio smiled weakly as i got up to pick Alicia up from her big-tit's house.

I spoke to big-tits and Andreas, trying my hardest not to start yelling, and told them they could stay in his house for all i cared and he would be given papers to sign shortly. He stood defiant. Oh, i wished i could punch him but that wouldn't be a good thing for my baby girl to see. I left the house, got into the car and started crying. I could see my baby stare at me through those deep brown eyes as if to tell me its all going to be all right. I hope it were so.
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Mama's house is so full of warmth and love, I could't understand why Andreas never let me visit them often enough and lately, Antonio had been helping me alot. I can't help but feel safe with him now even if it goes against all my principals. Alicia loves her uncle Antonio more than her father, i think. Her eyes light up every time Antonio walks in the room and she starts cooing compared to when her father walks in. It's like he doesn't exist to him. I feel sad for him.

The papers for the divorce have all finally been signed and i'm happy. Mama insisted that i stay. She told me that even if i'm not Andeas's wife, I'm still his childs' mother. Antonio had started to get really close to me. I'm okay with it. It's pretty much becasue i dont have Andreas's jealousy to take care of anymore. I think i'm starting to understand why Antonio was so quiet when i spoke to him.
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It's been a year now and i'm still living in mama's house, Antonio's spending alot of time and effort trying to court me. Mama didnt want me to go and marry someone else. She like having me around. Antonio is in love with me. For once in my life, i feel wanted and happy. Alicia is growing up strong and happy. She's getting more and more active now that she had started walking. Oh, the hassle of running after that child.

One night, something wonderful and somehow against my expectations, as i was talking with mama and papa, Atonio proposed and in shot in Andreas telling me not to do it. I shrugged and looked at Andreas with so much fury you could bake a muffin over it and said yes.
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Andreas attended the wedding and cried as he watched me become his brothers' wife. I smiled when i heard he had stopped seeing big-tits. He missed me too and wanted me back or so he said a few days ago. I don't believe him. I have Antonio now.
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It's now a long time since I finally had to grow up. Alicia is now joined by a pair of monster twins, Anette and Wakein. I live in a house a few blocks from mama's and i'm thankful for what she has done for me for the past few years. Mama is trully a blessing.